Me & my boyfriend were fighting. But, yes were still together. I’m still in love with him. ((:
October 2010
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September 2010
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A boyfriend gave a challenge to his girlfriend to live a day without him. No communication at all and if she passed it, he’ll love her forever. The girlfriend agreed and didn’t call or text him the whole day. Without knowing that her boyfriend had 24 hours to live because hes suffering from cancer. She excitedly went to her boyfriends house the next day. Tears fall as she saw his boyfriend lying in a coffin with a note on the side. “You did it baby, can you do it everyday? I LOVE YOU”
It’s funny how the two people that are NEVER NEVER EVER there for me in person is always plaguing my mind. Sure, I get affectionate conversations despite the current situation and what not. Damn, never thought I’d get myself in this kind of mess. Maybe that’s why I always want to travel and whatnot. I want to better myself & make them regret trying to play with something they’ll eventually always want & never get . (: Mmmm , determined. yes .
My static lullaby.
Count your lucky stars
for you don ’ t know when they ’ re gonna fall.
it ’ ll pass so fast you ’ ll take a moment ; regret it all
to be her light, her life, her shining star
she ’ ll always love you no matter how far
afraid to be alone, hurt on every turn
you ’ re her light that within her burns
to save her from the darkness
the monsters within herself
fake smiles & gentle laugther
behind the eyes are the door to her soul
i love you , i need you
MORE THAN YOU EVER KNOW
Copyright. Kym Fabro
He doesn ’ t know what he does to me. I fall deeper everytime he’s there. Over the years my emotions just keep going deeper and stronger. I don’t know what to do & I don ’ t want it to stop. I ’ m probably setting myself up for heartbreak but I don ’ t care. Maybe I ’ d really be happy if for that one moment, he was mine. Mine & no one elses. I don ’ t know what he ’ ll say about it but I want to be with him. I really don ’ t want anyone else now that I think about it. As long as he ’ s okay with it , I want to be with him. These feelings that he makes me feel are so unexplainable, words can ’ t even begin to describe it. It ’ s so amusing knowing he knows that I want to be with him yet he ’ s so clueless to know how much he means to me. To know that he could possibly be my world. The one that brightens my day. Always being there for me, picking me up before I begin to fall. It ’ s the meaning behind his actions and words that touch me so deeply that I can ’ t help but hold back my tears as I feel different emotions swell up within me . I ’ m so afraid to tell him how much he means to me , afraid he’ll reject those feelings in my face, or worst; scare him away. I can ’ t even imagine how it would be if I were to never meet him. It ’ s hard to hide those certain feelings for years , only prolonging the inevitable. I don ’ t care how far away he is. If he wants to be with me , I’ ll be happy. Knowing that he loves me won ’ t change anything. I doubt distance could change how I feel about him as long as I know that he loves me, right? I don ’ t know what else to say but if anything comes up in mind, I ’ ll just say it. & he knows that i ’ m wearing my heart on my sleeve.
“If you disrespect her, you don’t deserve her. Eventually every guy mets a girl he thinks is great because she’s gorgeous, she makes you laugh and she’s fun to be around. All of your friends tell you how much fun she is, h ow she can just cruise… She’ll be the kind of girl you’re happy just being able to wrap your arms around in public because you’ll know every other guy in the room wishes he was in your position. If you’ve already found her, maybe you’ve noticed that she’s always there for you ? Or that she thinks you’re hilarious when no one else is laughing ? Maybe you don’t realize how hard that is to find, but if you’re lucky enough to be with a girl who makes you happy, DON’T FUCK IT UP. Don’t lie to her, don’t hit on other girls and don’t fucking cheat because you’ll know it’s your fault when she stops putting up with your shit.”
So lately, I’ve been just out of dazed & when I don’t have his attention I get upset. I mean I understand from what’s happening he’s suspicious but really, you gonna read my phone ALL THE TIME, you gonna look at every convo I have now ? Mmmm, I don’t know how this is gonna work when you say you’d let things go but you obviously haven’t. I don’t have your attention like I used to. You’re in your own little world. I left the house and it took you almost an hour; ALMOST A FUHKEN HOUR to notice that I was gone. Whats wrong with this picture ? Why am I feelin disconnected, abandoned & so much more other things. I don’t know. To be continued…
I don’t understand. Just take the time to understand the girl your pursuing. thats all.
College
Ehw, no thanks.
Gawd , lately i’ve been just pigging out & pigging out . I used to be 123 lbs & I’m just .. UGH ! YEAH, this is my written determination because lately words were just words. Time to put action to the talk, yaahhknow? Heres to my new written to goals to go back to the way my body used to be. -___-;
2010 GOALS
3.8 GPA
NEW TATTOO
GYM BOUND EVERYDAY !?
HELP MY MOM
well here we go (: